This is an apology to myself   for all the stupid things that i   still do to myself sometimes   i give me hell i stop and wonder why   Why do i keep on believing in   things without rhyme or reason   cause it's habbit forming   and not good for me   It's just a collection   another addiction      So, i'm giving up almost everything   cause i know enough to know i'm changing      i'm looking for a new direction   i need a place where   i'm ok with self reflection   i'm looking for a new direction   cause every time i turn around,   i can't believe it,   but everything's still the same