you should have showed me   a long long time ago    instead you kept it in your heart    for those rough ass last sad ass days    meaning so much to a boy   oh he enjoyed those weekends    never lost his faith in you    and never put you down   fuck no I feel shame    as they’re stitching up your stomach   will I ever gain the power    or the sperm to be a better man   plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips    oh daddy   now look at me I'm all grown up   I’m so scared to be alone   crazy people point their fingers    ha ha   I hate the smell of funeral homes   I'm doing alright for being a bastard   it's ok he'll be back    she said so sweetly and so mad    he's going out to catch a disease    grandma grips her rosary beads   surprises me with hot fudge and    some late night channel 9   The Wizard of Oz was on she helps to keep me occupied   I feel shame    as they’re stitching up your stomach    will I ever gain the power or the sperm to be a better man   plastic forehead melts makeup on my lips   oh daddy   ah you left me so fragile   hollow and so yellow   dig you up and say    I'm a man today    sometimes I've forgotten    how you smiled while rotting in your deathbed   why daddy let me cry   why   you woke me up   you woke me up........5:30