if you could only keep me alive   i swear that somehow we could find this   way to change my life   and help me sing this   because the rain, it hit this town   and washed away half of my faith, but now i'm ready to feel   what i've been feeling      and then the sun, it hit my face   and made me think of all the things that made me pray   like when i stood up all this cocaine hit my heart   then all the sudden i'm in love   oh god, it's almost summer      i hope addiction took my heart because i'm   looking for a hook that could just   hold me back from tearing out these speakers   it's not the sound that drowns me out   but all this doubt that broke me down   you were my friend, but now i'm taking you to hell      if you could hold my hand   you could feel what i've been feeling      i wrote this song for you   it's not the reasons that i left   it's just the ones that kept me hanging onto you      so hold me down to   writing letters   like the song said   i'm so much better   when i'm gone   you could take your time   because i'm living off this antidote      if you could hold my hand   you could feel what i was feeling   when i wrote this song      i wrote this song for you   (if you could only keep me from letting this go   if you could only keep me from singing this sound)      but my pride, it killed this town   and remember what you said, but i'm still proud   and you could feel what i've been feeling