Through the confusion you see an illusion:   In this world, sex and leprosy; God never said a word to me-   Your Eternal Soul, reduced to flesh in disease   Run the race alone between the soil and the sky   An echoing silence to answer your cries;   I have one question to ask Him, I know I've only got so much time…      Went out in the desert, dragged myself through Hell,   Bent every muscle, every nerve to the cause   Only to come face to face with:      Everyone gets what they deserve, every gets their just deserts   Everyone gets what they want   Everyone's going to die   God wants some suffering, God hates your lies   God grinds under heel when you try to survive   "So relieved to discover God loves you?"   Nailed to the cross of your hate for this life-   That's your faith?! Do you feel deserted?   You dragged yourself through Hell,   Believed in every word, but in Death   Only come face to face with Yourself.      The Kingdom of Heaven is Flesh,   To the ends of the earth and no more;   Every shudder, every shivering night   Until the maggots come to carry you home   When your heroes are slaughtered   Your lovers are raped, world of shit:   No one gets out alive, no escape   It's not hard to believe, is it…   That in death you will be Saved?   Went out in the desert   Dragged myself through Hell   I have a growing suspicion   That there's no secret to tell      Reap what you sow in blood red sex   Deathblood red and needle tracks   As your illusions kick the last nail in   You plead for mercy   Plead to just stop wanting   (But I) Once waited to return to claw   Now transfigured in the fire I pray:   If nothing else is left for me, to exalt in pain   I choose to bleed   To bleed      Born again, out in the desert   Walking in God's steps; whispered the secret to me-   Silence as sure as death   I went out in the desert, dragged myself through Hell   Knocking down Heaven's door   I only come face to face with   Myself.