I'd satellite my dreams   Onto all the world's big screens   And you would surely see   Just what it is you mean to me      I couldn't tell you what I'm missing out on   I couldn't tell you what's choking me   I couldn't tell you what's boiling under the surface   I couldn't tell you anything      This is killing me more   Than it should have ever been and   I'm afraid to say that   There's nothing worthy at stake      It's disappointment on all horizons   And now there's no escape   There's deep bereavement   From the days we spent dancing in our graves      And I'll still wait for you to come back to shore   Drifting in your sweet frustrations   I'm disillusioned and bear contusions   From all your games of pain      Broadcast me something quietly   Hold out the hope that I'll be listening      I'm sorry silently I'm doing this again   And I'm going to end this transmission with static      I'm sorry silently it's happening again   I'm under too much confliction to stand it      Lie about it it'll be alright   Yeah lie about it it'll be just fine   Hey lie about it and I'll lie about you   And we'll just dig ourselves another hole to sleep in      You and I are just out of hand and just out of my reach   And up here tonight there's nothing that I cannot see      She can try to keep me,   Yeah, she can try to keep me   Happier than the idea of being with you   Oh how she can keep me   How she can tease me   And I can't help but try to stay away      Oh she can't keep me   'Cause I won't let her hold on   I'm happier with an idea   Than the real thing   Oh I can tease her 'cause it's easier   But I can't sleep on a bed of nails      And I'll wake up cold and tell myself   That none of this could be happening   Without something giving on both sides   Could you call it a push, a push to a stride   Til I break out into a run and come crashing back into you   'Cause she's no you      You are a centerpiece, you are my melody   You are the light that shines me back to shore   You are the air I breathe, you are my secrecy   My heart, my soul, enraptured pure.      End this communication   End this bitter blood transmission   End this resuscitation attempt      End this crippling feeling   End this unrelenting nightmare   End this before I can't take anymore      I won't say a word   And we'll drift to sleep in silence   Dare I grieve   For a a memory, a moment of brevity      We lie in the eye of a hurricane   'Cause I lied when I said I was over you