i'm waking up, another morning wasted.    we watched the smoke rise from the ground.    we said it out loud. it's never been this clear before.    i'm leaving. i'm leaving.    the sun never set like it did last summer.    as we warmed up in each other's arms.    i can't take it anymore.    i was left dying on the floor.    summer struck harder than it ever did before.    this time, i'll watch the door slap you back,    right where it hurts you the most.    when you found me that summer night.    when i almost died.    i wish i was dreaming.    i knew i was dreaming.    all the voices in my head.    all the pain i dread.    it all adds to nothing.