in this holy emptiness   i am yearning   searching for my bitterness   got me learning      i can't beat you to feel the same   don't have the knowledge   enter a state of guilt and shame   kind of bondage      when you came through that door   this was burning      i feel and i fear      i fear that you will leave me   is that forbidden feelings   i cry when you despise me   is that forbidden feelings   it hurts when you discrase me   is that forbidden feelings      or am i just selfish