took another walk tonight past the girl's house that I like   but the blinds are always drawn and I don't care enough to knock   goddamn it, I don't always want to live like this   the sun touched by rain like fish   but you'll have to search through ashes just to see if I remember you   because all I remember is back when we were friends    and the doorbell sang a sweet song   and now, I sit here and drink my wine   like talking to it feels so different without you   took color from the leaves   tore the last stitch from my sleeve   Akaky Akakievich, would you have a coat to spare   for a boy without a cigarette   who wonders but does not regret   that he is designated early death   and yet you hold your breath   like, suddenly, you'll have something to say   but you know that things are too fucked up   just be silent and drink your wine, like a good girl should   I know you remember how this is done   I was only trying to purify the idea that people just don't last