featuring Lauryn Hill      Yo, we gotta start respecting life more ya'll   You look at your brother, man, you gotta see yourself   Gotta see the god within him   Brothers getting changed real quick over nothing   We losing too many of ours   Gotta recreate ya'll   Yo check it      Knowing you the best part of life do I have the right to take yours   Cause I created you irresponsibly   Subconsiously knowing the act I was a part of   The start of something, I'm not ready to bring into the world   Had myself believing I was sterile   Look into your mother's stomach wonder if you a boy or girl   Turning this woman's womb into a tomb   But she and I agree-- a seed we don't need   You would've been much more than a mouth to feed   But someone, I would've fed this information I read,   To someone, my life for you I would've had to leave   Instead I lead you to death   I'm sorry for taking your first breath, first step and first cry   But I wasn't prepared mentally nor financially   Having a child shouldn't have to bring out the man in me   Plus I wanted you to be raised within a family   I don't wanna go through the drama of having a baby's momma   Weekend visits and buying J's ain't gonna make me a father   For a while bearing a child was something I never wanted to do   For me to live forever I can only do that through you   Nerve I got to talk about them niggaz with a gun   Must've really thought I was god to take the life of my son   I could've sacrificed going out   To think, my homies who did it I used to joke about   From now on,   I'ma use self-control instead of birth control    Cause 315 dollars ain't worth your soul   315 dollars ain't worth your soul   315 dollars ain't worth it      I never dreamed you'd leave in summer   You said you would be here when it rained   Why didn't you stay?      Seeing you as a present and a gift in itself   You had our child in you, I'll probably never feel what you felt   But you dealt with it like the strong black woman you are   Through our trials and tribulations, child's elimination   An integration of throughts I feel about the situation   Back and forth my feelings was pacing   Happy deep down but not joyed enough to have it   But even that's a lie, in less than two weeks we was going back at it   Is this unprotected love or safe to say it's lust   Busting, more than the sweat in somebody you trust   Or is it we don't trust eachother enough   And believe having this child'll make us have to stay together   Girl, I want you in my life cus you have made it better   Thinking we all in love cus we can spend a day together   We talking spending the rest of our lives   It's too many black woman can say they mothers, but can't say that they wives   I wouldn't choose any other to mother my understanding   But I want our parenthood to come from planning   It's so much in life that's undone   We gotta see eye to eye about family before we can become one   If you had decided to have it the situation I wouldn't run from   But I'm walking, finding myself and my god   So I can discipline my son with my writing   Not have a judge telling me how and when to raise my seed   Though his death was at our greed,   No one else to blame,    I had a book of African names in case our mines changed   You say your period hasn't came, and lately I've been sleepy   So let's quit smoking the weed and the bidis and let's have this boy       I never dreamed you'd leave in summer    You said you would be here when it rained    Ohh I never dreamed you'd leave in summer    Now the situation's made things change    Why didn't you stay    I never dreamed you'd leave in summer    You said you would be here when it rained    Ohh I never dreamed you'd leave in summer    Now the situation's made things change    Why didn't you stay?    Stay, stay stay stay stay stay stay    Mmmmm, stayyy    Uh-uh    Ohh why didn't you stay..