I've just returned from a long round trip   Many tales I have to tell   Now I don't get high   so you think I'm not hip   But I've seen the gates of Hell   How can a youth rise above all the shit   When surrounded   by such lousy influence?   He clutched the pipe, took his last hit   And nobody's heard from him since      Chorus:   In this world of confusion   Drugs were my solution   The pain was breaking my heart   I shut out my reality   Nearing my fatality   found myself falling apart      Miserable, horrible, life such an obstacle   Making my own matters worse   To end up dead in a dark alleyway   Or to ride in the back of a hearse   To die for a cause like pride or respect   Or honor would make you quite worthy   A pitiful waste to live in the sewer   And die before you reach thirty      Chorus (4X)      Cop a bag as a crutch   copping out, lose so much   hangin' out, dippin' butts   Lost my mind smoking dust   There and back      Back in the days I was living a lie   Too cool to show my feelings   too cool to cry   Lost in a fog and unsure of my friends   With a one way ticket   headed straight for the end   As the flames burnt the rope   and my spirit cut loose   I found my self wrapped   in an emotional noose   I said to myself continue no longer   Today I face the world with a mind   that is stronger      Spent my time gettin' nice   I crapped out rolling dice   Look at me and my scars   Now I live pure and hard   There and back (4X)