A heartpool hostile town is no place you'd want to fail   somewhere you were to fail      success at any cost   it favours *****   it favours *****      When even there i did nothing calm   someone that i should have fought off      she was my fabulous friend   I could but be impressed   I could but be impressed      I wish i'd been hers too   what good does wishing do   what good does wishing do      I was born afraid, I miss her to this day.   For me and only me   my concern it was for me   my concern it was for me      How am I to accept   I could show such thoughtlessness   I could show such thoughtlessness      I cant stop thinking of the person i did not think of      I'm not brave, I'm not special   I'm not any of those things   I'm not any of those things      this guilt that i do feel   I deserve to always feel   for the deserved to never not feel.