I swallowed all of you   Where am I? Not here   Drifted far way from all things clear   And frozen in the fall   Looking up at you   Trying to save me with your words but that...won’t do      Before I opened all the doors and let you in   All I wanted from this life was to begin   Now it’s my lie that won’t believe me   Love is what will kill me no more      Forever as you said, ends where we are now   You who made the sun go out somehow   Of trust impurely made by the slightest tear   All the seams have come undone and you...not there