I couldn't make it change   I couldn't make it go away   Whatever lives in me each time I think of you   And I know it's my fault   Know you haven't led me on   Still I find here outside lost without you   Driven by a voice that never says my name   The insane way I cry hers out   Each night when I'm alone   Alone I hear you deep inside me so I come   The lonely distance to the walls   I know you live behind   I'm standing here once more   Can you hear me?   Hear my pounding fist   I'm beaten on your door   Beaten on your door   I see it in your eyes the recognition so much less   Then what I have no right to dream of but I do   And you haven't led me on   But this world keeps us connected let's me look at you   As you look back at me   Sometimes, oh God, we even touch   To you it seems so harmless   But for me condemned   The sentence passed   Encounters are the punishment; sweet torment   The lash I bear for loving you alone   (Guitar solo)   Oh, you pull and pull yet never lift a hand   But if I could I'd hate you for it but I can't   Some crazy nights I race   Against the pounding of my heart   I race to reach you once again   'Stead I reach the lock   Instead I reach the lock   Without the key you never gave me   So I'm beaten   Does it matter?   Well, if you don't come the door will say it silently   Well, I'm standing here once more   Can you hear me?   Hear my pounding fist   I'm beaten on your door   And so I knock and hope you come   I scream your name through darkened windows   Are you in there?   Can you hear?   I have no right to do this   Beaten on your door   I'd much rather whisper quietly my love   Close and soft into your ear   Tried to wait till it was real   Didn't make it   Now I'm beaten on your door