i only feel like i'm asking when i'm asking   i'm only asking 'cause i don't have enough of these things that i want    oh these things that i want   i find i always use them up   i only feel like i'm crying when i'm crying   i'm only crying 'cause the tears ain't so much   i can't sit here all alone   i'm so scared when i'm at home   i'll find a world that's right for me   i can feel it when the lights come on in the city from my house   and i can feel it when the lights go down on me         i only feel like i'm slipping when i'm slipping    i'm only slipping 'cause it hurts in my blood   i can't change who i am   i don't have another plan   why did i ever try to lie?   i only feel like i'm lying when i'm lying   i'm only lying 'cause the truth hurts so much   i can smile through the pain   but i know it doesn't change   oh god i've torn out my insides   i can feel it when the lights come on in the city from my house   and i can feel it when the lights go down on me         it only feels like i'm asking when i'm asking   i'm only asking because i don't have enough of these things that i want   oh these things that i want   i find i always use them up