Remember the time when we first met   I wish I could see you standing    There so tall, so proud of it all   And through the years you helped me grow   Sometimes fast and sometimes oh so slow   I just want you to know that I    still see you everywhere   and by now I think I should care      All my life that you won't see    Just came rushing over me   How amazing is this grace when I throw it in your face?   Twenty some odd years ago   Never guessed, how could you know?   Memories of you erased, lonely, broken, lost, replaced   All I ever knew of you   believed in me but now we'll see   Can't tell you why but I can show you how      Everywhere I still see you   Waking daydreams strange looks disappointing   Shameless sunsets are losing faith in me   But I'll keep holding them high    If it keeps you here with me      Back and forth my conscience sway   I speak truly everyday   My whole life has been a lie   Up and down until I die   Promise me that you were real   Guilt regrets the way I feel   One too many lessons learned   Feelings spurned and we got burned   Bridges not long after   You were gone but did you matter   To me; live through me   And I will show you how   I deal with you now      People always coming up to me   telling how sorry they are   and how much you should mean...   well I can answer that:   He's not your dad   I'm sick of sympathy for shit you'll never understand   So when you give your best   Just like the rest    You're not giving anything I don't already have   so take it back      Everywhere I still see you   Waking daydreams strange looks disappointing   Shameless sunsets are losing faith in me   But I'll keep holding them high    If it keeps you here with me