I am a man   I strive to survive as best I can   In bed I lie as I wonder why   What it means in this world to live then die   Suicidal thoughts play across my mind   In a bind I wish I could fade sometimes   Flee out to sea like a lost memory   Or a dark fantasy that could never be   Anger would then was away like rain   How can it stain my heart with pain   Please tell me why Kenny had to die   He was way too young to be where he lies   While another friend suffers endlessly   Her body afflicted with HIV   Miss my dog with her head in my lap   Can still see her on the floor collapsed   At night demons attack my sleep   Nightmares cast from the shadow deep   Moments in time slipping by   As few have your back but many deny      I'm punchin the clock and hole in my walls   Wonder if God is there when I fall   Only when I die will my dues be paid   Upon wages of sin will I be weighed   I'm not obsolete cause I'm alive   Through the gate of death I do survive   Past the dark fold theres a light to behold   There's a mission in life that remains untold   The path I choose I cannot lose   There's somethin' to learn here before I'm through   With no demand let my mind expand   'Cause every life on Earth is part of a plan   The joys in life come by surprise   Upon this truth sanity lies   Think of my best days there's more to come   Think of my victories yet to be one   Think of my loves yet to be found   Think of my friends gathered 'round   The worth of life is not measured by days   One can live long yet trapped by a barricade      Follow my dreams no matter the cost   Try to move forward even when lost   What is known is life is a loan   At the end of the road is a gravestone   Like a man on the edge with nothin' to lose   I see and do what I wish to do   'Cause I'm all in with a short stack   Never look back if it turns out whack   With this life we breathe comes mystery   Shadows cast on reality   Don't you hear the ghostly calls   Transcending from beyond our walls   There's a world out there beyond our own   A place human eyes will never know   Angel's watch from beyond the grave   follow your soul if you wanna be saved   I've seen miracles before my eyes   Hope their revealed when I die   As the circle of life ends where it began   I am a man