you know I never used to drink    but these days    it's my only link    to understanding    what it is    to cope with loss    to feel regret       my how time has really flown    just yesterday I had someone    these days I have the extra space    in my bed there's a guitar case    that's sleeping where you used to be    oh you know I never used to drink this way       did I just hear a noise at my door    I go to check but nobody's there       today I found a photograph    of me when I was 10 and laughing    oh it's funny how a life    can change from wondering why the sky is gray    and to abandoning caution giving time away    like something you can give for free    like happiness has just one key    but things aren't always what they seem    because every failure is once a dream    and mine its still has never changed    I wished to write a song that never fades       did I just hear a noise at my door    I go to check but nobody's there       I just realized it's new years eve    well that's my way of keeping track of time    because fate has never failed   it seems I always spend this night alone    and wonder where you are    and who you plan on kissing    when this year expires   leaving in its wake    a trail of memories    you can't escape the past I hear    it's just a burden    that you have to bear       hold a second someone's at my door    I open up the locks    and twist the doorknob    all to find the girl    whom I am writing this song for    my mouth opens to speak    with tears upon my cheeks    my body says    "hello Emma I'm happy to see you again"