I’ll lay this book on my chest   Lie in the dark and think about all I’ve done wrong   Just to be any closer to this would send me to tears   Knowing that you’ll be there in the end      Remember the candle that I lit    It casts a shadow on the wall   Reminding me I’m never alone      Like cliché movie scenes   I raise my arms to the sky for you      I look to you for inspiration   You showed me the life behind these paper walls   You’ve been abandoned for so many years   Tell me is this what you died for?      Open my eyes up to a different light   One where the colors never fade   I’ll be the palette, you with your vision   Use me to paint my life      (There’s been so many times where I’ve just wanted this life to end   So I could be with you   I know I can’t change the things I’ve done   But I know I still have your love)      I collide with my conscience once again   I will fake this heartbeat just to prove I am alive