all i've ever wanted,   was to find a little peace   something i could grab onto   and hold inside of me   something to make me feel   like my dreams would never end   when the story was over   it was re-written again      who am i trying.... (to be)   endless nights.. (of misery)      you know that feeling   the one you want to go away   no matter how hard you try   it just will never fade   that one that makes you empty   and tears into your skin   tearing at the flesh    and pulling from within