I was in the water when you grabbed me from behind   your arms around my neck   it was more than fifteen years   since you or me left   was I supposed to be surprised   you kissed me   wiping chlorine from my eyes      did you leave me   or I leave you      voted third most beautiful   eleven hundred in our school   I had you number one   & how I remember you turning up   to trade me for a younger flame   barely sixteen years to my name      did you leave me   or I leave you      did I leave you or you leave me   she said “I scored two out of three   & was the third revenge for you”   her smile was cold the water blue      we clung onto the side a while   afraid of letting go   “is it you or my youth I’ve been missing so bad”   she turned & swam away   was the last thing I heard her say