when jasper left he left for good   said i'm not staying here i'll be left for dead   and i believed him   down the long gravel road    to the house with the dogs   living with zombies   it's the last place i want to stay   so i jumped on my bike   and i sped towards life      pay me up man   i'm not just a free show you know   big freak's in town   i'm not just a free show      should have followed him to portland   but i got lost on the way   in girls and drinkin'   and my journal's empty pages   and the way this city never ages   tracing the lines between my hands and hers   there was everything   and everything was worth leaving   and everything was worse than leaving      pay me back please   i am just a child alone you know   take me in please   i am losing my fight for home