Here comes a cop with a gun in his hand and   I'm thinking that this party has gotten out of hand   I look at the snow falling up on the hill   The stars are so cold and the lilies are so very still      It was so unexpected, it was just like you said   A bloody little black number with a gun to her head   I took all my chances I took all of the time   I took every last drop of summer, still hoping to shine in the      Fall Light   The angle is funny, the lens is not right   I want to stay   In the silent beginning of that blessed day      Hotels and barbells and inching away   From the funny little black spider who always gets his way   A church on the corner where I learned to pray   I said, "God, you gotta give me something, something to make me want to      Stay here   When the message is muddy, the meaning's not clear   I want to turn   From the fullness in me, from the lesson that I'll never learn."      Hold me like a baby   I know no one can save me   I feel so tired and crazy      So little and lazy   Hollow and hazy      I'm a story   That never gets told 'cause I'm never believed   Sorry   For being so blind, for being so weak