What do I do to ignore whats behind me?   Do I follow my fate to escape blindly?   Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams   And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?   Do I let it go and try to stand it?   Or do I try to catch them red-handed?   Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness   Or do I trust none and live in loneliness?   Because sunlight burns the skin of sleeping men   I make the right moves but I'm lost within   I put on my daily facade but then   I just end up getting hurt again   By myself (myself)   I ask why, but in my mind   I find I can't rely on myself      I can't hold on   To what I want when I'm stretched so thin   It's all too much to take in   I can't hold on   To anything watching everything spin   With thoughts of failure sinking in      If I   Turn my back I'm defenseless   And to give in to fate seems senseless   If I hide my pride and let it all go on then they'll   Take from me till everything is gone   If I let them go I'll be outdone   But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun   If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer   Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer   (By myself)      How do you think I've lost so much   I'm so afraid I'm now out of touch   How do you expect I will know what to do   When all I know is what you tell me to      Don't you know   I can't tell you how to make it go   No matter what I do how hard I try   I can't seem to convince myself why   I'm stuck on the outside