Fixating on my wounds again   Pulling at my limbs just to see how far I bend   Persuing every detail in my skin   I am self dissection and I cherish every pin      This genocide behind my eyes   Disposes of any piece that threatens to defy   it never rests shedding every useless thing   as I stretch towards complete autonomy      I have forgotten   How it feels   To be clean and   To be just me   I am not lost I   am just in hiding   to be held by time   and take back my life      I'll push this far enough to see   How to take control over every part of me   I contain everything I need   To know that I'm alive all I have to do is breathe      Alone, safe with the company I keep   except the needling of thoughts, pushed in way too deep   I fear the ache that finds me in my sleep   I know I can't run faster than the blood black night can creep      Filling me up   making me whole   holding me close   letting me grow. freeing my soul