I'm not a cool guy anymore   as if I ever was before   I took a look at all the signs   then rolled it over in my mind   the feelings I could not release   became a bitter part of me   what was I thinking of?   it couldn't stay the way it was   I looked at my reflection    and I saw a stranger's face   I saw where I was going a   and I had to walk away      I lost a girl, it's just as well   she tried to save me from myself   I've still got her on my mind   tossing and turning in my bed   but if she had stayed another week   I would have dragged her down with me   she took it 'til she had enough   is that what I thought love was?   I told her "see you later"    But it's hard to see at all   at the bottom of the barrel   with your back against the wall      Well I'm not acool guy anymore   left it behind me, then locked the door   I know you can't escape the past   now I look back and have to laugh   I was my worst enemy   it almost got the best of me   what was I thinking of?   it couldn't stay the way it was   I looked up one day and saw it was up to me   you can only be a victim if you admit defeat   I looked up one day and saw it was up to me   you can only be a victim if you admit defeat