I'll be the one last breath before this death   I'll be the final glimpse of truth when there's none left   And if I shame your face, degrade your faith   I'll be the first to hide behind disgrace   Blood-loss- on account of my failing aim   Treason- At the root of my shameful name      I found my way to fall   I never meant to break your heart      Chorus:   Breathing in this pain (rejecting all I am)   I hear you cry again (is this my final stand?)   Before I go (before I lose it all)   You should know (I hate myself for hurting you)      I see the burn of the light from within my grave   I feel the pain of contradiction despite decay   And if the shadow of doubt will betray this gain    Then put an end to me now while the hope remains   Blood-loss- on the account of my failing aim   Treason- at the root of my shameful name      (chorus)      This is not my life   This is not our life   Every day I die    This is not my life