When was it that you lost your youth or traded   It for something more for them to use so jaded   Why is it that you never said   I love you more than just a friend   I pray this gridlock never ends   And when we get there just depends   I found out recently that you are leaving   For good I hope I softly tell my ceiling   It's better now to be alive   Sleeping is my 9 to 5   I'm having nightmares all the time   Of running out of words that rhyme   Everything that you could never say   Would never matter anyway   I took a hammer and two nails to my eardrums long ago   Before that steak knife took my eyes   I looked up to the sky   For the last thing I would ever see   For the last time I'd cry   When was it that you sold your life or wasted   Every bite of that small slice you never tasted   I guess I should be one to talk   There's nights that I can't even walk   There's days I couldn't give a fuck   And in between is where I'm stuck   From blocks away I heard somebody screaming   That small child inside of you that you left bleeding   You stabbed him up not once but twice   Cubicles will now suffice   Some say it's the roll of the dice   I think they're wrong I know I'm right   Every breath that I could barely breathe   Could barely make it past my teeth   I took a blowtorch to both of my lungs a long, long time ago   ANd Every step that i could take    Is more difficult to make   Mr. Chainsaw came and took my legs a long, long time ago   In case you're wondering I'm singing about growing up about giving in   In case you're wondering I'm singing about growing up About giving in    and giving in.   In case youre wondering We're singing about growing up and giving up   growin up and giving up