i start to think a lot about what i did    but not what i would say    my friend, it's not what they told me    had allot of shit go down but in the final stage    you wanted me just to say, i've done my all    now i'm stable    now that the cards are on the table    well all was said in decent taste    all i needed was some distance and space, a mess    a lesson is learned    alot of people knocked it but what they'd see was    different from what you'd say    you'd say i can't understand why you don't come to visit    get on with your life, you can't understand...    that i'm doin' fine this time, i don't really care    what you say no more now that i see    what was distant from me, not going to wake up    doing fine this time    that could be why you are here no more    things for you went wrong this time    you want it more than i do    something changed along these lines    you needed it more than i did