In the hollow of your armsSnuggled up safe and warmYou used to tell me tales of unicorns and kingsBut how could I comprehendAll the things you told me thenOf your maddness and your strugglingMy mind would swim in fantasiesLike a piece of driftwood on the seaI had no touchstone for realityYou were my realityLike a dark and unlit roomOr the far side of the moonYour insanity spoke emptiness and fearNo matter how I triedHow I questioned and I priedI just could not penetrate that thin veneerAnd I know you tried to comfort meTo soothe and reassure meBut then your strength would always failAnd in it's place a silken veilLike a dried and wrinkled pruneA deflated toy balloonI came home and found you strewn across the floorAnd as they lay you on your bedI heard you say "If I am dead,How come it just keeps on hurtin' more and more"And you left me in the early springAll they said was "Mommy's resting"And how was I to know so youngIt wasn't something I had doneSo please try and understandI will love you as I canI do not blame you, you're not guiltyBut still theres no way to describeThe relief I finally foundUpon learning it was youAnd not meThat was crazy