Happy birthday, so make a wish      Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been   Would you've been a little angel or an angel of sin?   Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys   Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes      I payed for the murder before they determined the sex   Choosing our life over your life meant your death   And you never got a chance to even open your eyes   Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you fought for your life      Would you have been a little genius in love with math?   Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad?   Would you have been a little rapper like your poppa The Piper?   Would you have made me quit smokin' by finding one of my lighters?      I wonder about your skin tone and shape of your nose?   And the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow?   Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen   Happy birthday, love you whoever you would've been   Happy birthday      All I thought was a dream, make a wish   Was as real as it seemed, happy birthday   All I thought was a dream, make a wish   Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake      I've got a million excuses to why you died   And other people got their own reasons for homicide   Who's to say it would've worked and who's to say it wouldn't have?   I was young and strugglin' but old enough to be your dad      The fear of being a father has never disappeared   Pondering frequently while I'm sippin' on my beer   My vision of a family was artificial and fake   So when it came time to create I made a mistake      Now you've got a little brother, maybe he's really you?   Maybe you really forgave us knowin' we was confused?   Maybe every time that he smiles it's you proudly   Knowin' that your father's doin' the right thing now?      I never tell a woman what to do with her body   But if she don't love children then we can't party   Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen   Happy birthday, love you whoever you would've been   Happy birthday      All I thought was a dream, make a wish   Was as real as it seemed, happy birthday   All I thought was a dream, yeah, make a wish   Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake      And from the heavens to the womb to the heavens again   From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin   Maybe one day we could meet face to face?   In a place without time and space, happy birthday      From the heavens to the womb to the heavens again   From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin   Maybe one day we could meet face to face   In a place without time and space, happy birthday      All I thought was a dream, make a wish   Was as real as it seemed, happy birthday   All I thought was a dream, make a wish   Was as real as it seemed, I made a mistake