i'm searching for my god   to reach into his heart   and take what i know is mine   take a look at his face   tell me what you taste   when you put your tongue to his spine      this day it seems to me   like an endless dream   where i fall and never touch the ground   get a little closer now   so i can hear him growl   and drown in sweet sound      i'm searching for a face   i think it used to be mine   hidden from his lovely eyes   i will share no secrets   i will tell him lies   do what i need to survive      he's not so pretty anymore   'cause i am sober now   is that a hint of regret on his face?   it's been a lesson for me   but i'm still no wiser   i will walk back into his embrace