To wallow in pain   Used to make me feel like I wasn't the same   I thought I was special cause it hurt so much to be part of the game   Well the earth took me in and he swallowed me whole and made me   Feel warm   He said   'Man, the cold days are coming and your worry is the uniform'      How I wish I would die   How I wish I would die today      So he showed me a picture of a boy he had known with a beautiful face   And no one had loved him   But the earth took the picture to its hearts secret place   He forgot the boy and he gave up his soul and the image was all   He said   'Man, this is perfect beauty and it lives on beyond your last fall'      The fear, the fear will keep me alive   The fear in my proud and envious eyes   That I might be the same, I cannot let go of my chair   My lungs push hard against my ribs to keep the truth in the air