The chaos came: desires and passions    Destroy my mind    The strikes of heart and thoughts    Can not get normal    The innertion takes me    To the lost points far away    Once the feelings being so comfortable calm    Become unruled and wild and pulsing    The usual state of things    Ceased to exist    There stayed my pain    The feeling of delight jealousy and passion    I remain the same    I do not change    I play, manipulate and let the others    Do with me the same, and then enoure    I change surrounding and then    Come back again. I find and lose    The relaxation is found only    In the unbridled passion    In desire to dissolue or disappear    But all in all the feeling now is nealized    The one I cannot understand    It tries to conguen me and get me back    And to restore all what was lost    And that was just the decay of my soul    The memories which are passionate and sweet    Are mixed with everyday occurance    Will I ever feel the other way?    Please, present me with a gift    Of the other state