The chaos came: desires and passions   Destroy my mind   The strikes of heart and thoughts   Can not get normal   The innertion takes me   To the lost points far away   Once the feelings being so comfortable calm   Become unruled and wild and pulsing   The usual state of things   Ceased to exist   There stayed my pain   The feeling of delight jealousy and passion   I remain the same   I do not change   I play, manipulate and let the others   Do with me the same, and then enoure   I change surrounding and then   Come back again. I find and lose   The relaxation is found only   In the unbridled passion   In desire to dissolue or disappear   But all in all the feeling now is nealized   The one I cannot understand   It tries to conguen me and get me back   And to restore all what was lost   And that was just the decay of my soul   The memories which are passionate and sweet   Are mixed with everyday occurance   Will I ever feel the other way?   Please, present me with a gift   Of the other state