It seems like I've been here   A thousand times before   One thousand times everyday   And I still beg for more   Not far from here I'll find myself   But time is the distance from that feeling      I can't take it   These beatings I give to myself   I've got to stop   But I need your help   My better half is the half that I hide and I'm   Trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this go      Your words are healing but they're burning me up inside   I'd love to taste, I'd love to feel and share that life   Here I am I think I've said too much again   You're too real and      I can't take it   These beatings I give to myself   Have got to stop   But I need your help   My better half is the half that I hide and I'm   I'm trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this      Have we gone too far   Or maybe not far enough?   So many walls in our way   And it's not a surprise   To me that this is right   In front of me I see the rest of me   I see the rest of my life   And so again I beg for that beating   And when received I won't release- It's so healing   Caged inside I hide myself from all life   I've cried one thousand times   I don't want to be alone again   I want to know myself   I want to be your friend      I think I'd die without that feeling once again   I know I'd die without that feeling once again   I'd quit this all to have that feeling never end      I'm trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this go      I'm trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this go   I'm trying hard not to let this go   Let this go      I can't take it