I think I hope I die before my friends do   Because the alternative makes my stomach hurt sometimes    When I say "friends" I mean family I like too    The second tear friends I could horribly get through       Now my life has shame (on me now)    This is not nostalgia, this is not the past    And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash    Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight    Wouldn't it be nice if I could say    "I won't change and you won't change, if we could both agree to stay the same    Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"       Let me tell you about this crazy list    The best relative order of the people I know's deaths    According to partners, handlings, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera, yeah    So let's be safe because it's on me    I have spacesuits for you and a spacesuit for me    Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone    Spacesuits for everyone, spacesuits for everyone       This is not nostalgia, this is not the past    And if it's gonna end external like a stupid car crash    Regardless of my body, regardless of my weight    Wouldn't it be stupid if I were to say    "I won't change and you won't change, and we could both agree to stay the same    Well then for once in this life I would not complain, if we could both agree to stay the same"       I hope I die before my friends do