i watched my mother die   she never wanted me anyway   and if a bastard i was born   then i guess a bastard i will be   and everything i've ever loved   was taken away from me   my girlfriend didn't want to get fat   so she killed our baby man   i'll be the candle   if you'll be the flame   i'll be the knife slitting your throat everyday   and we'll always be together as long as i'm alive   sometimes i stop and think i'm better off without   Oh I hold on   though my heart is stone   and i hold on   though my soul is gone -   and everything that ever was   and everything that could have been   i've contemplated self destruction   i've contemplated acts of rage   but what does any action that brings you comfort   in the night   i can't be the one - i can't be the one   when you die