Kept my heart locked away   I kept it far away from me   Found a place down by the river where nobody goes   Buried far beneath the levee      Places where I used to go   When it rained, my heart went deeper so   Deep blue underneath the sea   Washed away for no one to see me      I don't have the feelings I'm supposed to know   And I don't get the feeling that you understand   Only get the feeling that you're feeling sorry for me   That's never been the point of what I've said      Never really knew what love was   Mixed it up with other thoughts   And growing up alone doesn't help one sort it out   Even when you're here, you're not no      Never learned to trust another person   Never knew a person who understand my words   Why I chose to share them, I will never know, but knowing   No one took the time to understand me      Do I want forgiveness or the thrill of maybe knowing   I could change direction, never caring where I'm going   Sometimes all the time it takes to make your destination   Isn't charted out as clearly as it seems      Now the smell of vaporub comes over me   And all the shame of weakness builds again   Rules and expectations I can't follow any more   I became the person that I am      Wouldn't want to make you think   You haven't found a way to me   It's only that it's not   As simple as it seems to be