i'm taking a look   back at the mess   the stains   the smell   but now is the test   rebuild the trust   of my friends that are left   think i'll be back   i wouldn't hold your breath   for everything   you've done   I stand stronger   as the man that i've become   and i won't pretend   were blood   hard earned lessons   when you hurt   hurt the ones you love   my hands are tied for once   only through Him   forgiveness for all of the wrong that you've done   it would've hurt a lot worse   when you ripped my heart from my chest   if i wasn't already dead from the knife in my back   friend was the name   that you lost when your face changed   all this was insecurity   your part defiling me   friendships were born   friendships will die   but in between   were the lies   so close to you   so far from new   we've all seen you   can't believe we're through   find a sucker you can leech on to