if my parents were here   if they could see me now   what would they say   what would they do   would they be proud   proud of me   would they be proud   proud of me      if I went back to that place   where it all fell apart   would I remember what it was like to   be a kid   do you think it would help me   be a better man   because right now I don't know   I don't know what I am      sitting in my room   staring at posters on my wall   people I look up to and respect   none of them are you   you were always there for me   I just never saw you   and now that you're gone   all I wanna say is sorry      sitting in my bed tonight   thinking of what to say   why do I always lie to you   there must be another way   staring at these medals   and pictures on my wall   I ignore the ones   that make me hurt and fall      I stopped trying to remember that day   where it all fell apart   but it's still very clear to me   how I broke your heart   you think I don't understand   you dont think that I see   all the time you've wasted on me   you've given up on me