i hurt myself today    to see if i still feel    i focus on the pain    the only thing that's real    the needle tears a hole    the old familiar sting    try to kill it all away    but i remember everything    what have i become?    my sweetest friend    everyone i know    goes away in the end    you could have it all    my empire of dirt    i will let you down    i will make you hurt    i wear my crown of shit    on my liar's chair    full of broken thoughts    i cannot repair    beneath the stain of time    the feeling disappears    you are someone else    i am still right here    what have i become?    my sweetest friend    everyone i know    goes away in the end    you could have it all    my empire of dirt    i will let you down    i will make you hurt    if i could start again    a million miles away    i would keep myself    i would find a way