With no hopes and my will to live   Barely a care in this world to me   I found a way, kidnapped and confined   Within a system designed      To destroy the innocent child that I use to be   It stripped me mentally naked   Embarrassing my mommas first born   Did I deserve that kind of fate?      Was all that was happening to me   Really written in the powerful   And almighty book of life?   I don't think so my tears would      Soak the pages that I write upon   If I couldn't close the windows   To my soul and stand strong   In the midst of these storms      Maybe my story is in some way   Or another familiar with yours   Is that why this ain't even a song   But yet you still, you wanna here this once more      I play this every time I wanna reflect from   Which I've come from, to help me see   Where it is I'm trying to go and even though   Grandma and our sisters left me some time ago      I still go by and sit on the front porch   As if I don't even know but I'm getting better   My mom, my two sisters, Ebony and Tanya   Destiny, man, I got Mikey and Shocker now      My homeboyz and those   That love me regardless   Diary of a sinner, another entry   I guess I'll finish this tomorrow