From a crack on my sealed window enters a ray of light   It falls down at the foot end of the bed   that I'm not going to leave (any more)   I curse you morning light, spot on my solitude   No one here to mourn with me the loss of hope in this life      The light that brings the day reminds me that I'm dead      I want to break out, I want to be free   And leave behind these chains that keep me captive   My life a ruin, it has ruined me   I smell my soul rotting; it fades away with the years      O bastard life, for too long you fooled me   You made me believe that you are worth to live      A growing fury, a growing pain    enveloped my soul, paralysed my heart   love is a lie, hope is a morbid joke   every day the same old song      I want to break free from this vicious circle   To hear some words of comfort, to breathe some joy      I have passed the point of no return since long:   The gravity of this black hole is too strong   Look at me, disappearing within its darkness   My God, it hurts more than I could possibly imagine!      I must cope with the emptiness   Which has weaved its web around my soul   I've sunk in the abyss of desperation   And yet I'm here, a fool among the fools       The hour has come...   the angel of death looks me straight in the eyes   like a basilisk   He stands there staring   with empty gaze- like an ancient statue   and tries to break the shield   which guards my empty soul   But all those joyless years   have eventually dried my tears   drained every emotion of my well-worn body   which slowly rots and disintegrates   The angel smells the stench of slow death   disgusted, he disappears into the night   I cut my flesh with my broken nails   enjoy the fluid of life flowing   The cancer has left my heart   and yet I'm more than ever dead...