much too tired of having the same old restless nights, hopes and dreams all in vain.       i know for a fact that its too little to late, but im too scared to just let go      ive known nothin else in my entire life, it's safe to say that i miss everything.      but dwelling on this comforts me in a stupid fucked up way, and im too scared to just let go.      harsh realization that im not   holding on to anything   holding on to myself   holding on to the person i used to be.