There is within me a life of pornography   Though you'll never see the thoughts that destroy me   How can this be?   Are there two sides to everything?   How can this be?   Is no one really what they seem?      I saw her walking by   In her face, I saw the light   Then I raped her with my mind   And went home to my loving wife      How can this be?   What would she think   If she could only see    The darkness I bring with me?