dishonest   you came with your first kiss   blue eyes sold me your heavenly presence   something was suffocating me and i couldn抰 breathe   had no idea that you would ever deceive   i tried to believe all the things that you taught me   christlike images of truth   they straight got me   now watch me drown in sadness   my lungs gasp for air as i let you stab this heart   and rip apart wounds that exist   deeper and darker than any words i could spit   all is shit   and it will never be well   because the fires that burn are my never ending hell   is this what you call god?   your faith is lost   is this what you call god?   get off your cross   get off   bridges connect for necessity   lifelines scar my hands like the rest of me   asked me to trust you and yes i tried to   constant apologies caused me to lie too   tried to medicate my hate with your magic   how could something so sweet end up so tragic   resurrect me from this abyss   in death every body function fails to exist   false commitments   tongues twisted with religion   a heart shaped rock of the same size incision   obsolete   with no relief or release   just insomnia filled nights of never ending sleep   is this what you call god?   your faith is lost   is this what you call god?   get off your cross   split a piece of wood and i am there   lift a stone and you will find me   are you still scared?   sanctuary   sanctuary   sanctuary   there抯 no sanctuary   is this what you call god?   is this what you call   god   is this   is this   is this what you call love?   get off   get off   watch me   get off   get off   watch me   get off   get off   now watch me fall   i swallowed all of your lies   and they felt good going down   death be not proud