I'm scared to death   Of myself      I can't feel anything   I can't feel anything   I have become the pain   I have become my own demons      I'm tired of being a punk   yeah, like I ever was   I'm tired of being myself   yeah, like I ever am      like a quarter dug out of a homeless man's pocket   like a finger torn out from the socket   I tried it and I knock it   I'm just mad, 'cause nobody wants to steal my soul      I'm tired of being made up   yeah, like I ever am   I'm tired of being tied down   yeah, like I ever was      Turn the radio on   to the techno station   keep it a few points off, so it sounds all ruff   Then it matches my head   all static with the meters in the red   I'm feeling half dead      feel the demons rise   let the mercury rise   I can't close my eyes