Memories alive in shame  Through my sadness  Sun shines cold  Now and here I want to fade  Thoughts, my feelings, tears  Try to change the world  As the worst become reality  Falsehood in your speech  To live this repulsive land    Garden falls in yellow-red  As tears then meeting the dawn  Childish dreams and happy years  Sustained in the dark    Bring me to the broken panes  Let sunshine burn my eyes  The truth was hard to face  And all now seems in vain  Relentless slowly reveals  The pains of life increase  Autumn in garden I feel  And all now seems like  Wounds of your hands  Theheaviest cross on thy neck  Brought down your faith lord  In your name  I am here haunted by fear  Trembling afraid to sleep  Lying on the dry dead leaves  Key to nowhere  In my reach  We were dead from the begining  False existence we dreamt  And now I see I've never lived  Help me escape