[1st Verse]    Picture me  In a casket  Blasted  Never nobody  Knew how long  The pain lasted  Keep my eyes tight  I'm frightened  But I fights like Tyson  When playin' this game of life  I'm losing  Longing to be enlightened  Absorb my mind state  Reduce the crime rate  And take me out   When running toward the Lord  I see 'em fake me  Out shook me  So from church I play hookie  Listen to the words of a brother  The sick stutters  So you better better   Get the get the bags ready  Comes a killer killer  Like Skagnetti  My brains contaminated  Hella rotten  Wasn't me that killed you  Who was it what was it  The effects of the mildew  My brain's wilted  In my eyes the world is a bit tilted  Lord take me away  Before somebody else gets killed  Blood spilled  Seriously  This is the letter to my homies  I'll be missin'  God told me to behold a pale horse  But I didn't listen  It's hard man  My life is scarred man  I'm losing my mind  So now it's time  Sincerely sign  N9NE    [Chorus]    I just wanna die  I don't want to wake up  I don't wanna cuz  That's the way that I feel  I'm barely hanging on  I don't want to wake up  I don't wanna cuz  That's the way it has to be    [repeat 2x]    [2nd Verse]    I made your life a living hell  With my infidelity  Remember your telling me  All I give a damn about  Is weed stems and melodies  Remember you  Spent 30 minutes in the hospital parking lot  Crying  When the blood test read  The baby of another woman was mine  99.99  You should've left  Along time ago like Mary J. say  Just let it go like Ray J.  Con't  I know your mamma heard  You yelling mayday  Spent my life trying to R-A to the P  You sick of me  Always bein' B to the R-O-K to the E  Now there's nothin'  Else left of me  I was a bum  But you still wanted some  Through the rain, snow and thunder  Foul ups , bleeps and blunders  But no man shall tear asunder  Is what you said  You should've put multi bullets  In my head  When you found that evil   Instinct was a song   Where the events actually went on  This is the letter  To my homie, my friend  Who put up with me for 8  So now to take me  Really quickly is my fate  I'm sorry  For making it hard  I know your scarred  I'm losing my mind  So now it's time  Sincerely sign  N9ne    [Chorus]    I just want to die  I don't want to wake up  I don't wanna cuz  That's the way that I feel  I'm barely hanging on  I don't want to wake up  I don't wanna cuz  That's the way it has to be    [repeat 2x]    [3rd Verse]    I love ya'll  The dynamic duo, my babies  It ain't your fault  That your daddy's crazy  Donny,  I miss your drumming like me  One day you'll be ruling  Leelee,  I miss you in my face  Yellin'  Daddy, what you doin'  You two are the reason  Why I'm still standing today  But I'm 1600 miles away  And you get my heart sinkin'  When I start thinkin' about you babies  I heavily start drinkin'  On a daily puffin'  I'm seeing my heart  I gots to toughin'  Can't see me leavin' my angels with nothin'  So I keep bussin'  Use my pain for you two  I've gotta come up in the game  Fly planes 2 an island  So one day you can do the same with yours  Love you galore  And I ain't playin'  makin' me put an end  To this suicidal mind state sayin'    [chorus]    I don't want to wake up  I don't wanna cuz  That's the way I feel  I'm barely hanging on  I don't want to wake up  I don't wanna cuz  That's the way it has to be    [repeat 2x]