i want you to find me   but i don't want you to touch me   seems so disgusting   to be handled like a doll   i'm not trying to be dramatic   i'm trying to be nothing   so when you find i've finally done it   please burn me where i lay      things aren't getting any better   things are only getting worse   i'll apologize for the mess of my life   for the rest of my life, forever   unless you promise, promise to kill me first      i want you to find me   but i don't want a big party   hiding my body in the ground   so your version of the story is safe for the rest of your lives   i'm crying for attention   i'm done   i'm trying to resign   so when you find i've finally done it   forget my name and set my stupid fucking corpse on fire      i'm not afraid   why should i be?   i've got all my friends from baltimore right here with me   i'm not afraid   why should i be?   i've got all my friends from highschool right here with me      =====      eventually i'll have to take them    on my break if i don't shake less   empty hands. the fire's left   they can't quite fight with their old strength   i'm so tired   i'm torn up   it's over now   you can make me normal      your eyes are broken   you must lose them   take the pills   kill the delusions   you can't see it's adaquate   so swallow while you can't fix      i havn't shaken in what seems like forever   i have let go of all my old obsessions   i'm healthy i am better   there's no more songs so when i'm dead and gone   i know it won't be the new me they rememeber   but i don't need my eyes to see   my eyes have only lied to me   recognize the time for quitting   and your vision will outlive them all